[ One word almost too late, she's ready to turn on her heel and just go. Because she never wanted this. She never wanted any of this. But she can't deny Parker anything either, can she? She stands there for awhile, at a loss of what to do. It has been a long, long time since she cried at anything - because she had gone numb, long before this point. Her eyes lowered and watching her, no part of her is ready for this conversation. She was intent on putting it all behind her, only for it to come up now.
She pretends so often to be a qualitative force, all soft-spoken words to help others in their grieving, but she has never stopped to do the same for herself. Her eyes down, feeling an acrid taste in her mouth. This is it, isn't it? This is what they will be.
She never wanted any of this, she had only wanted to snatch her life for seconds that she never got, she only wanted to have happiness and everything in between that she had never felt. Something tears itself up inside of her as she kneels in front of her for awhile, still at a loss, she just can't stand to see her curled up little like this.
Swallows, her fingers hover without touching, not sure how to. She feels vulnerable and open. ]
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She pretends so often to be a qualitative force, all soft-spoken words to help others in their grieving, but she has never stopped to do the same for herself. Her eyes down, feeling an acrid taste in her mouth. This is it, isn't it? This is what they will be.
She never wanted any of this, she had only wanted to snatch her life for seconds that she never got, she only wanted to have happiness and everything in between that she had never felt. Something tears itself up inside of her as she kneels in front of her for awhile, still at a loss, she just can't stand to see her curled up little like this.
Swallows, her fingers hover without touching, not sure how to. She feels vulnerable and open. ]
Please... please, look at me?